Don't want to talk about it

2003-05-14 - 3:17 p.m.

It's not that I'm avoiding you (diary reader), it's just that I don't want to talk about it.

It's not that I'm not good at talking about my feelings, I just hate it.

See, what my brain knows, and what my heart knows, and what my gut knows are very different things. Talking about feelings like this is too similar to my brain admitting it's not really in charge. I do not like that Sam I am.

Read some other diaries, or get a book. Take up knitting or quantum physics. Download porn, start a cult, vote Republican - whatever you have to do to pass the time instead of reading this diary, because, as I said, I don't want to talk about it.